ponderings

Oddly enough, lately I have been feeling that I am wasting time trying to make any money with my love of making art quilts. It has been suggested that I begin to design and make baby quilts. Nothing against baby quilts, but I just don't "feel 'em" ya know? I imagine I could try a couple and see how it feels then, but I am just seriously doubting any type of quilting as a way of making money. Sure I have folks doing a BOM Mystery right now, and I have some doing a regular BOM, but every time I do a mystery, nobody plays for one reason or the other, hard to get a following that way. I teach classes at a fabric store, true. But 2 or 3 students isn't going to enable me to dig out of the financial pit I find myself sinking in all the time. In fact, it COSTS me money to do the classes! So basically I am just getting back what I put out. By the end of this month I won't even have a car to GET to the classes either. Inspection time and it needs brakes, tires, a headlight and who knows what else. When I am feeding 6 people on less than 50 a week it doesn't look like car repairs are going to be in the budget anywhere in the foreseeable future.
I had gotten all excited about photography again, but my "test" of whether or not they would be more salable than art quilts was a wash when they didn't even get in the exhibit because of dumb stickers I put on the glass of the frame. So the cost of printing and buying frames was a waste of money. May as well have flushed it for all the good it did.
Am I upset? Down in the dumps? Even totally depressed? Yep.
haven't gone near a project in days..I just don't feel like it. All I want to do is lie down and stare into space....
oh well,,,as Scarlett would say "tomorrow is another day.." or was that Annie??